Imperfection is good

最近天气开始转凉了，很舒服。于是找来了很多借口窝在家里不去上课，因为家里太舒服了，很有安全感。如果说女人在男人的呵护下会有安全感，那男人在家里的被窝里是最有安全感的了。这几天窝在家里也不是因为真的要偷闲，除了在外头吃之外，我在家窝了整整4天都在赶功课，赶网页的东西，的确页页皆辛苦，也不知自己哪找来那么多的精神和毅力一个人干完也没有半点怨言，可能是因为自己觉得还蛮有成就感而忘了该生气了。不过其实我也不怎么样啦，自己一手一脚做的确学了很多，现在大功告成了真的很高兴。

不过现在唯一担心的是未来两星期的终考，到目前为止都还没来得及动那封尘已久的书，开始有点担心，不像上个学期，第13周就开始整理作业了。这个学期作业的截止期都几乎在期末，搞得我们在第14周也就是最后一周都还得赶作业，安排得真的太笨了！不过这次终考的时间表总算没有令我失望，利落得1星期半就考完了，甭拖太久，很好。

对了，今天我们的Alex哥终于在千呼万唤之下买了他的BMX自行车，从今以后不必再听他烦说要买自行车了，不过现在他似乎又有另一种懊恼，就是钱。天啊！他什么时候才学会停止唠叨？

刚下载了Natasha Bedingfield从第一张到最近的专辑的很多首歌，发现他也是一位很杰出的歌手，像 Carrie Underwood 和 Leona Lewis 一样，唱现场超棒！拍烂手掌... 他其中一首歌我特别钟爱，"Freckles",无论是歌词或旋律我都特别喜欢。其中有一句是这样的"Because a face without freckles is like a sky without the stars...those little imperfections make you beautiful, lovable, valuable, they show your personality inside your heart, reflecting who you are..."写得真的太好了，人总需要有些缺陷，少了它们就会变得很不真实，那一些小小的缺陷正是令你活得更漂亮，更讨喜，更有价值。它们更会凸现你的个性，反映真实的你。无话可说，写得太对了。

What a great night in Famine 30

Today was quite fun for me, could spend my night in Famine 30 performing. Guys there were just nice, clapping all the way though they had starved for 10 hours, thanks for everything. Honestly, singing "Bleeding Love" for me is quite a crazy pick, but I guess I've sung that nicely, wish I didn't put Leona Lewis to shame, muahaha!! I was just enjoyed the high notes and little runs thing in the end, they're just nice. And of course the down-to-earth guitarist, Hui Hsing, I couldn't make that without your help, your skills of guitar is just wonderful, thanks for making my dream comes true that I could sing "Anyway" by Martina McBride unplugged, I have dreamt to sing that song for so long. This song really meant a lot to me.

Not to forget our very talented talent night members were also done a good job. One and a half hours performing by 9 persons was completely a mad mission, but we really did manage the time well. Instead of talking all those craps by Guan Han, I thought everyone was really really good. The dance were great, the singing part were bravo, and the "xiang sheng" was terrific. It's a great night for me, I hope the audience's did, too.

After a great night, I have to carry on with my assignments again, it's tiring, but I know I can make it through the odds. Lim Kok Joo can!!

xoxo.

懊恼但明确

现在的我很累，很想睡了，肚子也饿得要命，但就是还得赶功课，很无奈。多两个星期就要终考了，这一次来得比上一次害怕多了，因为正当稍微可以从功课解脱之后，又马上要忙温书了。虽然忙，不过我还是乐在其中的，因为可以很充实的过着，不用想太多无畏的，没有时间处理那些芝麻小事，也懒得去管。现在我可以很诚实的告诉你，我很忙，不过我很快乐。

忙归忙，这个学期就快末了，还真的留下蛮多回忆的。至少还有时间做自己喜欢做的事情，至少不会迷惘的走着，有很明确的路指引我走着。

好了，真的累了，我看还是先睡个觉明天再拼吧！Haiz..突然间很想念那位炸家乡鸡的老公公，希望待会儿他会在梦境里带我到他的餐厅里去坐坐，嘻嘻！

Loving you

Today is Kah How's birthday. Oops! Now is 2am, should be yesterday, arh,whatever.. That was counted in my birthday celebration, too. I saw a lot of new faces in the orphanage house this time, and I don't know whether it is a good sign or bad, I just know they're all happy, just happy at the moment, I wish they really do. The moment that I will never forget today is when Kah How was advising me not to take any cold drinks, stick to the warm water instead when he knows I'm having throat sick. He's only 14, if I'm not wrong, but the way he speaks or acts is just like an adult, he knows how to take care of people around him, he stops the bullyboy, he knows how to love people around him. That was so warm to me.

Kah How and me celebrating birthday @ orphanage house. It meant a lot.

And tell you what, I don't mean to be showing off or telling for some reasons, I just wanna share my happiness here, my housemates got me a 7th birthday celebration last night. Gosh..I never expect I could have 7 times of birthday celebration in a year, this was too big for me, I mean my birthday is too long-lasting, sounds a little funny huh?! But I really really really do appreciate, you won't know how much I love you guys, but I do, and always do.

Celebrating my 7th birthday celebration with my housemates.

Though today is 12 August 2008, 4 days after my 20th birthday, I wanna be a little bit greedy. I'd love to request one more wish, the biggest wish in my entire life, I wish everyone around me is gonna be okay from the bad 'cause I'm always there loving you.

xoxo.

Rice Basket rocks

Yesterday was a good day for me, had fun at UTAR Sg Long campus. I was really mad with the beats and my lovely group, Rice Basket a.k.a K-Tank, they rocked the night, just love 'em so much. I've never been that crazy cheerful person before the night, honestly. I'm having throat sick, and I think I'm getting serious then, 'cause I did yell, feel sorry to my throat.

They said they'll have another training for next dance battle so soon, and I guess I'd wanna join them as I wanna be another multi-talented creature instead of just singing. Haha~ That'll be bloody fun, I guess.

xoxo.

Thanks for everything

It'll be very cliche to thank everyone who has celebrated my birthday and wished me, but I totally have no idea what to say instead of keep saying thanks. You guys meant a lot to me, a small but sincere wish really meant a lot to me, indeed.

I love ya'll. I wish everything's gonna be fine to you.

xoxo.

I wanna thank..

I know there are lots of moments too odd for me, my life's a little bit challenging. Negativity or criticism is everywhere to hit on me, like everytime I tried to be what they wanted from me, it never came naturally, that's why I always ended up in misery, wasn't able to see all the good around me, now I know they've actually wasted so much energy on what they thought on me.

And now, I've made the decision, never to give up till the day I die, never wanna dwell my pain again, 'cause there's no use in relieving how I hurt back then or remembering all the hell I felt when I was running out of my faith. That's why I woke up this morning with a smile on my face, and nobody's gonna bring me down today. I'm gonna say goodbye to all the tears I've cried, for everytime somebody hurts my pride, feeling like they won't let me live life and take the time to look what is mine. I wanna thank you for what I had above, too long struggling so that I couldn't go on, but now, I've found I'm feeling strong to move on, 'cause I believe they can take anything from me, they can definitely say anything they wanna say about me but they can't succeed in taking my inner peace, I'm gonna carry on and keep on doing my things.

For the people who has given me so much negativity and ever tried to bring me down, I wanna thank you. You've given me a lesson, you've made me stronger and I'm gonna keep on doing my things no matter what, throw all the fears I've held too long inside.

I'm gonna keep on doing my things, anyway.

休克

困扰了近4个月的喉咙不适，昨天终于在爸妈驯服下回家看了喉咙专科医生，说我发声带肿了，发炎。要我给嗓子休息两个月尽量不要说话，更不用说是唱歌。给了 我服4个月的药。要我做两个月蒸汽护理，说能够消炎消肿。这次可真的严重了，明天还得上台比赛，怕表现会害了作曲人的创作。还瞒着家人说要听话，真的对自 己的家人和声音感到内疚。

我答应自己在明天过后就要乖乖收声，我承认自己在过去半年过于用坏自己的声带，说话都用喊的，还频频上KTV。这一次真的要好好照顾自己的声音了，像医生说的必要时才说话，唱歌。

现在声带状态正处于休息当中，明天又必须开启，随明天后的未来2个月我将会是一个少话的自闭小孩。哇哈哈！谢绝找我唱KTV，也千万别引诱我，不然我会给你好看！

属于我的月份

踏入8月份了，代表着我自己的月份。很高兴，不过却没有历年来得期待了。今年的8月份即将会有很多节目充当，其中自己最期待的是我哥的毕业典礼，我们家在千呼万唤下终于出了个大学生了，大家都很替哥开心。这次哥的毕业典礼正巧碰到我的生日，所以我生日当天需要回家拍摄影照，真的很期待。除此之外，我生日那天也是难得4年一度的奥运会首天，感觉大家都在为我的生日倒数一样，很兴奋（狗屁+“有什么好兴奋？”）哈~

哎，虽然说8月份是我大学的期末，难免会有一箩的功课向我招手，不过我还是可以很高兴而且期待的迎接这一个充满意义的月份。

8月动向

8月6日-歌曲创作比赛 （演唱）
8月8日-我的生日 （庆祝）
-奥运开幕 （电视现场观看）
-哥的毕业典礼 （庆祝）
8月9日-新加坡国庆（关我屁事！）
-Streetbeatz Dance Competition （支持）
8月31日-我国国庆


祝一切都好。