2010的愿望

12月29日，晴

很喜欢今天的天气，很平静，所以很安全。

刚下载了蔡旻佑的新专辑，很好听！

很喜欢『寂寞，好了』，歌词跟我现在贴切得咋舌。

歌有5分钟那么长，就原谅我多脆弱那5分钟。

倒数3天，2009年即将成为历史。

很喜欢重新开始的感觉，

因为前方永远带着未知的希望，像生命包裹般，需要时间一一揭开。

2010年，我希望我在踏入22岁以前可以... ...

马上考到驾照，然后一个人开车到处乱跑；

EQ高一些，可以不为某一件事情而影响自己的生活；

找到自己喜欢的人然后谈一场轰轰烈烈的恋爱，我开始累了；

继续唱歌给大家听，让更多的人认识我，这一次要用歌声感动大家；

长一些肉，目前太瘦了；

开开心心的过完剩下半年的大学生活；

为自己未来的事业好好规划，还是忙碌好；

看一场很棒的演唱会；

最重要的是，要快乐。

音乐为生命而发光，人为前方的希望而奋斗。

2010年的我，

还是那一位很乐观，很坚定，很爱说话，很爱唱歌的林国祖为自己加油。

大家也要加油～

xoxo.

今天 · 很轻

终于又考完试了，真的很值得庆祝。下午唱了3小时的KTV，把所有不高兴的事情都用歌声宣泄了出来，真的很有效！等你们哪一天失落的时候也可以这么做，哪怕是一个人唱，也要唱个尽兴。

唱了歌，吃了寿司，吃了雪糕。才发现原来人都用大部分的时间去怜悯自己，感受自己有多悲惨，却遗忘了周遭一切美好的事物。就像一张白纸，用笔画了一点，人们就会把焦点放在黑点上，却遗忘了还有一大张白纸的存在。我总有很多事情需要去费神，除了感情，我还有学业，我亲爱的家人和朋友。

谁又为谁哭了？这问题还重要么？

I love negativity, it hurts but I build up stronger then 大概就是这样的意思吧。人总要经历低潮的时候才能够了解高潮的用意。是，可能会痛，可是过程会令人学会更加的坚强，然后百毒不侵。可以达成百毒不侵的境界，多好。

多谢我是一个散忘的人，造就一个那么乐观的自己。可以用最短的时间去忘记一切不美好的事迹，用仅仅的一天去调适自己的心情。真的要奖赏奖赏自己～

也要多得音乐的力量，给了我一路心灵上的安抚。多难得。

然后就是睡觉，睡觉的力量还真是大。睡着了还有什么好伤感可言？

现在的时间刚踏入圣诞前夕。

这一天，

吸进身体里的空气是没有重量的，

很轻。

没有压抑，

没有感伤，

很纯的一口气。

趁着新一年的来临，

迎接一个新的开始。

人生，从第一页写起。

等待着未知的一切... ...

xoxo.

幸福的路

这首歌陪伴了我5年，没想到这首歌在那天是出现得多么合时。送给你的歌。

我不哭，不怕辛苦。

幸福的路

刘若英

这里我不会留太久
早就想好 要走的路
全心付出
不怕苦 去找幸福
我看见在不远处
一路庆幸
贵人帮助
一路也有人劝退出
托你的福 我不哭 不怕辛苦
眼泪于事无助
自己走这一段路
如果我孤独 别只为我哭
给我你一句祝福
这一条路
是未知数
没有人拥有地图
我明白现在自己身在何处
我很在乎
走这条路
有天能找到幸福
脸上每个表情
都可以回顾
都有我的故事 我会找到幸福
等哪天为我欢呼

圣诞，快乐吗？

那天晚上，

很想哭，可是哭不出来。

才发现原来伤心需要用那么多的力气去承受。

试着睡觉什么都不想，

却闪过很多我们之间的记忆和谈话，

还好，

并不是很多。

可能是因为这样，不够深所以哭不出来，

我想大概是这样。

是庆幸吗？

终于了解“原来爱情这么伤”里的歌词，

“你曾住在我心上，现在空了一个地方..."

想起曾经用心经营的一切，

突然被截半，

很心疼。

那天晚上，

睡得很吃力，

要一直告诉自己没事才能入睡。

睡了又醒，醒了又睡。

结果那一天睡到早上3点就再也没睡了。

告诉你我有小伤心其实是在逞强，

没告诉你我的心还真的伤势不轻。

圣诞节快到了，

还是一如往常，

还是得一个人度过。

两个人生活充满着未知数，

那我还是选择一个人的生活好了。

至少不用半夜惊醒，然后要一直告诉自己会没事。

没有全心投入，就不会有更多伤害。

不过我没告诉你，

我很快的就会好起来。

要谢谢你曾经给我的爱，

至少让我学会了一些事情。

祝福你们圣诞要快乐。

我在意

所以我伤心。

可是我很坚强。

xoxo.

我有“串”咩？

那天听我身边的朋友说，第一次认识我的时候，我的样子感觉很“串”。其实这事情并不仅仅发生一两次。那天跟Foundation的好朋友去喝茶的时候，兴起回顾当初认识彼此的点滴，他们都异口同声说我第一天很不是滋味，带着一顶帽子，一个人坐在角落，“串”到～

哈哈！冤枉啊～我当时是因为人生地不熟，生性又害羞（吐！）所以你们才会有这种错觉！不过说真的，我对陌生人真的是超内向的，人人都会以为我是untouchable，很糟糕！不过还好，后来跟我很熟络的朋友都说我很nice（再吐！）还说我吵到不行。Okay啦，我承认好了，我对自己较熟的朋友真的可以玩得很疯，因为对我来说去除了刚认识陌生的隔膜，我的嘴巴就可以滔滔江水如河流。最快速可以去除隔膜的方法就是... ...当当当当... ... 跟我谈我喜欢的音乐，我马上就会跟你做很要好的朋友了，哇哈哈！可是这种人真的是可遇不可求啦，就算谈一些有趣的话题也照单全收啦！哈哈！突然间很想念马六甲的馒头先生，在NS的时候跟我有说不完的音乐话题。超正！

在还没有说完废话之前，我要再次申明一下，我一点都不“串”，okay。不相信可以问我妈妈，哈哈！“串”这个字根本就不可能用在我身上，你跟我开玩笑！

我真的不“串”咧，一点都不“串”～

xoxo.

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Ya betta outta ma head

This is a song for who has broken me down, I don't want you to feel like I'm there for you, you're my world, and ended up messing my life. Now it's time to move on, keeping you out of my head. Watch the lyric.

Outta My Head
I keep taking
Taking you back
But I don't know why I do
You keep breaking
Breaking me down
So I'll find somebody new
Alright
I don't want to feel I'm there
For you, for life
And now your begging me to see you tonight
It's funny how easy you can mess me up
Now look how easy I get you

Outta me head, outta my head
Say goodbye
Somebody's gonna get you
Outta my head, outta my head
And tonight
I'm doing what I want to
You made the biggest mistake
And now I'm going to get you way
Outta my head, outta my head
Say goodbye
Somebody's gonna get you

I kept taking
Taking the blame
And it's soring me up inside
So defeated, losing myself
But you'll never make me cry again
Remember you and I didn't want things to end
And now your tasting all the pain I was in

Just Couldn't Get Outta My Head

Leona Lewis - Outta My Head live in Hackney Gig (Nov 2)

I don't usually post video on my blog because posting up video in here is so troublesome, first step is to download the clip from YouTube, then convert its .flv format to .avi, which makes the video size bigger, and lastly uploading the clip in here is like spending up 15 minutes of your lifetime. Duh! If you prefer to watch it on YouTube (which is clearer), please click here.

In other word, it tells the video worth all of my hesitation. It's my favorite Leona, and she's moving her body a little bit, that's the most important highlight I want you guys to see. Plus, this song seemed couldn't really get outta my head, the song did really shake my body a bit, even for a geek like me. (Ya, i know myself!)

But unfortunately the video was captured by the fan, the performance didn't seem have an official shoot, or perhaps it's yet to be out. This video and audio quality is still the best I found across.

Please don't miss from 3.00' on, it's the extended version of this song where Leona started her dancing. I just can't get enough of her dancing. I hope this would be the next single out, I bet this song is gonna be HUGE!

Leona, here you go!

xoxo.

The Best Damn Day

Had so much fun hanging out with my brother last night, from KLCC to Mid Valley, from an orchestra show to clothes hunting (for my brother). The French Romantics orchestra was awesome, though I've never heard of most of the songs, but I think I was trimming my own quality of life, ha... But honestly, the orchestra worth a standing ovation. And there's a magic thing I should mention about, you can feel your heart is beating so strong, or should I say a little peace of mind pounding inside you. It's just so magical!

Secret Recipe's cakes, yeah, we had our cheese cake moment in there, Subway for our lunch, ha... All my favorite things! And my brother just bought me a webcam from PC Fair which made the whole outing merrier. I got my webcam! But the quality kinda sucks, it claims to have 8 MP quality, but I doubt it only has VGA quality. Damn thing!

Not to mention the best of this outing was I only spent a little! Yay! It's utterly a different thing when going out with my brother, and yeah, he's a damn 9-to-5 working boy, grateful to have my brother spending on me. *evil*

Oh yeah, if you're reading this crap, thank you so much!

Gosh, it's time to stick with my stupid notes for that stupid exam. *fingers cross*

xoxo.

What can I say?

It's going to be a busy week, but I'm the person who can always take a short while, take a deep breath and believe again. So here I go to take another breath for the coming PR Campaign on 25 Nov, temporary leaving all of my burdens away and sing my heart out.

This time I'm going to have around 15-20 people helping me out to intensify the performance, and it's going to be a great fun! And I'm going to have the first rehearsal tomorrow, may god bless the good show!

xoxo.

Stop Crying Your Heart Out

Just changed the background music to my recent love to Leona Lewis, her new album, Echo is going to release on 17 Nov. Please support!

This song is called Stop Crying Your Heart Out, originally recorded by Oasis. Leona did a great cover after Snow Patrol's Run. I loooooooooooooooooove it! Please do not close this window before you finish listening to the song.

Hope you'll love it, too.

xoxo.

No longer thank God for Friday

Today is Friday, it should be my favorite little day, but darn, things turn out different on this semester, there is NO REST for weekend!! Creative strategy is killing me, our tutor is arrogant like shit, the assignment requires quantity but not quality, WHAT! And Broadcast Journalism wants 15 news from us! It's 15!!

Wish I could skip the whole semester, I know we've been comforted for so long on the last short term, but come on, the gap is way too big! We couldn't really get out of the comfort zone.

Okay, stop complaining, get back to work now! *crying

Year-End New Singles (Part 2)

1. Happy - Leona Lewis

I didn't like the song at first, but how can I not loving Leona's vocal, she even sang this on America's Got Talent flawlessly live, I wonder how can she hit a big note like "I JUST wanna be" in full chest voice, and sensational falsetto at 2:40", that's probably a "vocal gymnastic", playing around with those notes. This might sound a little familiar to you, and you hear it right, this is another production by Bleeding-Love producer, Ryan Tedder. And we all know Ryan big-beat style has produced the successful likes such as, Halo by Beyonce, Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis, Apologize by OneRepublic. Worth a listen!

Rate: 8/10

2. Bad Romance - Lady Gaga

This is no doubt another chart-topping song. Gaga's appearance may not always pleased their fans, but all her songs are catchy as always. During her The Fame era, from Just Dance to Paparazzi, she never let her fans down. Now she's coming back with The Fame Monster, which convinces her fans that she'll be coming back with much bigger monster hits. Though Bad Romance might not be catchy like Poker Face or Paparazzi, she still gives her very own Gagalicious, "Gaga, woolala.." in the lyric.

Rate: 6.5/10

3. Everybody Loves Me - OneRepublic

This is a surprise single, with surprisingly catchy chorus and vocal. Ryan Tedder is a beat genius. For whom newly listen to Ryan, this is a good start, and make sure you're ready to do a little moves with his song.

Rate: 7.5/10

4. Say Goodbye - Katharine McPhee

If you love Katharine's Ordinary World from her debut album, you must not miss this single. Her vulnerable tone makes us want even more. I remember when I first listened part of this song on CSI: New York, I just couldn't wait till it's officially released. This song is way too sad, "that way it won't hurt so much when we say goodbye..."

Rate: 8.5/10

5. Bad Boys - Alexandra Burke

Here's Alexandra finally has her album out, Overcome. This is her very first single in her debut album, and I love this music video, Alex can dance. I love how she collaborated her debut with Flo Rida, it's a masterpiece. Will this be another Bleeding Love topping the chart? We'll see.

Rate: 7.5/10

6. Doesn't Mean Anything - Alicia Keys

Don't you think it sounds a little bit like No One? Yeah, a little bit, but we can say this is Alicia's thing. her niche, perhaps. But I love this better than No One, its lyric is more understandable and meaningful.

Rate: 7.5/10

That's all for my reviews. Enjoy your day!

xoxo.

Year-End New Singles (Part 1)

There are lots of artists actually dated to release their album in the end of year. Thus, the single out are so-called "appetizer" to hit the charts before the album out. Not to mention, most of my favorite artists like Alexandra Burke, Leona Lewis, Carrie Underwood, OneRepublic, Whitney Houston, Alicia Keys, Mariah Carey, Jordin Sparks, Lady Gaga, Adam Lambert, Kris Allen, Allison Iraheta chose to release their album in this period.

Here are some not-to-miss singles in this year, sorry if you have seen the list somewhere in my blog before, I just wanted to repeat over and over in case you have forgotten some of them, really wanted you guys to have a listen on these songs.

1. Happy - Leona Lewis

2. Bad Romance - Lady Gaga

3. Everybody Loves Me - OneRepublic

4. Say Goodbye - Katharine McPhee

5. Bad Boys - Alexandra Burke

6. Doesn't Mean Anything - Alicia Keys

7. Emergency (911) - Jordin Sparks

8. Temporary Home - Carrie Underwood

9. I Didn't Know My Own Strength - Whitney Houston

10. Live Like We're Dying - Kris Allen

11. Friday I'll Be Over U - Allison Iraheta

12. I Want To Know What Love Is - Mariah Carey

13. Time For Miracles - Adam Lambert

Send me a message if you want the songs above, I'm always willing to share my music with my friends. Year-End New Singles (Part 2) will be talking about these songs in my point of view, so make sure you check out my blog back later.

xoxo.

Just alone

Nothing brought me here tonight, life goes on smoothly like the other days, but there's a sound telling me I must write something in here, and here I go.

Everyone seems lonely tonight, I don't know why, and I'm one of them having sudden heartache. What is the cure? Or who is? I'm just getting tired of this. Where is the people to lean on? I want to be in love, I ought to have one.

50 Facts of Mine

Okay, for those who are new stopping by. Welcome. This is Steve. You might be curious why an introduction (again?!) Yeah, I've got another way to tell you about myself, which some of you may find boring (sorry!), but I'm gonna tell, anyway.

I found numbered-list statement will do the things, and would be lovely if everything starts with "love" and presentable starting with "hate".

1. I love to sing. (lol.. I love divalicious, vocal, high notes, skillful voice.)
2. I love to dance (though I know I'm not a good dancer, but don't ask, I won't do that!)
3. I love and hate Facebook, love when I feel bored, hate when I have to sit for my exam.
   
4. I love being punctual and yes I am, always.
5. I hate late. (please make sure you're on time if ask me out somewhere, please.)
6. I love and think I have better looking without my glasses. (I'm puking..)
7. I love taking shower. (I can stay in bathroom, indeed)
8. I love rainy day.
9. I love winter more than any other seasons. (I love wearing a lot, that is why I love being in Highlands)
10. I love talking. (any topic that I'm familiar with)
11. I love collecting CD. (only for my favorite artists)
12. I hate being controlled (luckily my family is not that tight)
13. I love to watch concert, it's an impact even though you don't like the singer at first.
14. I hate arrogant, so please don't show your butt off my face.
15. I love Christina Aguilera, I think she has the best voice on earth. She's the new icon of a great singer.
16. Lots of you may not know that I love country music, and I do, country music is lovely, and I love Martina McBride, she's such an inspiration.
17. I love holding a microphone, there's so much intimacy.
18. I hate Internet Explorer.
19. I love orchestra, i did hear a lot Opus when I'm at home.
20. I love full-band singing, I wish I'll have one soon.
21. I love Gospel singing, they're doing soul, and damn, people who sings Gospel music has big lungs.
22. I love Studio Ghibli animation, they have the coolest anime in the world.
23. I love Jennifer Love Hewitt, I think she's hot!
24. I love casual wear, a plain t-shirt, a jeans, and a sneaker will do.
25. I love YouTube, I always find my music inspiration in there.
26. I love my family, they may be unkind at times, but I know we love each other.
27. I hate black mushroom, I can't stand the smell when I eat.
28. I love the anthem of United States of America, it sounds really good.
29. I love when people ring me telling their stories, I find it interesting hearing people's story.
30. I love muscle upset, I know it sounds a little bit crazy, but I love when I punch on it, it's not like hurting, but enjoying. (lol..)
31. I hate staying up late, but that's the best time to do my own things, I have no choice.
32. I love V-Soy soy milk, I think they make the greatest soy milk in town.
33. I love Friday, because the weekend is around the corner.
34. I love Simple, an over-the-counter brand of skin care line, it has all in natural.
35. I love piano more than the other music instruments.
36. I hate when my mom asking me to sing in front of my uncles and aunts, one of the weirdest moments I've ever had.
37. I love Mamak, please ask me out!
38. I hate long phone calling.
39. I love Mid Valley more than any other shopping malls, you can get everything in there.
40. I hate One Utama, I used to spend 45 mins of my lifetime to find Guardian.
41. I love Ovatine more than Milo.
42. I love being goosebumpy (in an inspiring way).
43. I love Domino's Pizza, it has the best pizza and the best service in town.
44. I love Toyota cars, very classy.
45. I love G-Soft 5566 blue ball pen, this ball pen never let me down.
46. I love Caucasian, blue eyes, with blonde hair.
47. I love the journey back to my hometown, it has some kind of magic making me so happy.
48. I hate Digi network, my MMS and GPRS service are not even available after a few times of activation, pathetic!
49. I love capsicum, I know most of you hate it, but it's my favorite vegie, one of my friends even asked "is it hot?" Oh my...
50. I love August, other than it's my birthday month, I think 8 is my lucky number. Ya, I know I'm superstitious.

That is all! To be continued...

-with love-

xoxo.

Sexuality concert issue again? Beyonce's the next?

Ticket for Beyonce's debut concert "I Am... World Tour" in Malaysia on 25th Oct is now open to book. This concert is gonna be hilarious. But this hooks another COMMON issue again, "Beyonce is way too sexy to have a concert in Malaysia" like two years ago, WTF!

Taken from AFP:

KUALA LUMPUR — Malaysia's conservative Islamic party called Sunday for a concert by US singer Beyonce to be banned, two years after her debut here was shelved over fears of protests by Muslim groups.

The R&B star is due to perform on October 25 at the Bukit Jalil national stadium just outside the capital, organiser Marctensia said on its website.

The Pan-Malaysian Islamic party (PAS) has campaigned against several foreign performers and in 2007, along with other Muslim groups, threatened protests that forced Beyonce to scrap her planned debut concert in Malaysia.

"We oppose the holding of such concerts and we will take action to prevent such a concert from taking place in Malaysia," PAS youth chief Nasrudin Tantawi told AFP, without specifying what action would be taken.

"This performance is not suitable for Muslims as her skimpy attire and behaviour onstage are immoral and lead to unclean behaviour," he said.

The scheduled concert is part of Beyonce's "I am..." world tour, which has seen her perform in North America and Europe, the website said. The promoters could not be reached for comment.

Performances by foreign artists frequently come under fire in Malaysia, particularly from PAS.

Look at that, "This performance is not suitable for Muslims as her skimpy attire and behavior onstage are immoral and lead to unclean behavior...". Fuck off! The concert should be labeled under "Non-Halal" then, no Muslims are allowed. Stop broadcasting all those so-called "over-exposed" TV shows or movies, as these would lead crimes. What an uncivilized thought! If a concert leads badness, think again!

Singles and Albums

End of the year often defines the overall performance of the year, this makes most of the artists release their albums during this period, and the triumph of a single (hit song of the album) defines the possibility of winning awards at the end of the year or beginning of the following year.

These are the singles that you don't wanna miss on this season,

1. Alexandra Burke - Bad Boys

2. Leona Lewis - Happy

3. Katharine McPhee - Had It All

4. All The Right Moves - OneRepublic

5. Carrie Underwood - Cowboy Casanova

And these are the upcoming albums that I must not miss,

Overcome by Alexandra Burke (Oct 2009), Unbroken by Katharine McPhee (Jan 2010), Play On by Carrie Underwood (Nov 2009), Light & Darkness by Christina Aguilera (Nov/Dec 2009), and Echo by Leona Lewis (Nov 2009).

I just can't wait till them out..

xoxo.

绝代商骄，赞！

我本身常常会称赞歌很好听，但很少会称赞一部电视剧好看，可是最近不由得我不称赞刚在香港播毕的“绝代商骄”，由黄子华和佘诗曼领衔主演。之前光看剧的名字还以为是古装剧，没有想要看的欲望，不过听说这套剧有黄子华演，很搞笑，所以就上PPStream看，一看就停不了，天天要追看至止。

之前黄子华和蔡少芬那套“栋笃神探”是我TVB剧当中的favorite，没想到这部“绝代商骄”的笑料更劲，当中还有很多经典的对白，真的真的很欣赏那部剧的编剧，当然黄子华和佘诗曼的里头配对产生的火花也是值得一提的。有一句对白我是特别觉得搞笑的。

黄子华在戏里是商业奇才，剧里头收佘诗曼为徒。佘诗曼逢有事相求就会找黄子华打救他，有一幕黄子华反倒有事请求佘诗曼帮忙，不过佘诗曼推三卸四，黄子华就回这一句：（以广东话念）

“你求人家的时候就喊师父师父，人家求你的时候就喊辛苦辛苦。”

简直令人笑翻天！

还有一个接受大支票的女人更好笑，名叫“李吴德娴”——> “你唔得闲”，又是“你不得空”的意思，相当搞笑！

还有一幕胡枫抓包谢天华的印尼米report有误，故意把其他印尼的资料充当印尼米report里中间，只做头7页和后7页的资料，结果被谢天华爸爸胡枫抓包，发现印尼report变成印尼resort。

超级搞笑！

搞笑精华都累积在第14集，发现这一集特别多笑料。果然是年度重头搞笑剧，值得一看！

想找些消遣或者是想大笑一顿的不妨可以看看这部剧，倘若看完整部剧觉得不好笑的话告诉我，我来请客逗你开心。

xoxo.

Shingles, friends and boring

It's been so long I didn't really sit still and blog my things up, so now's the time to make this up. Had serious shingles around my chest last week, it's like a big nightmare, but thank god it's recovering now, and thanks to Apple Cider Vinegar, I had no idea on how amazing is this vinegar. It stinks but it helped me get out of pain and dried out the blisters.

My Foundation friends who has already moved to Kampar campus came visit me on last Friday, we had so much fun for being together again, talked what we have missed out since 2 years ago, went to the KTV singing like there's no tomorrow. Miss those days. But I've spent a lot of money on these, started to find myself some part-time jobs.

Gosh, nothing to catch up right now, boring like shit, couldn't really stand the drastic change since my internships. By the way, thanks to god for all the blessings.

xoxo.

Lesson learned

Having my great time sitting on my chair and writing something, this is how my inspiration comes and makes the words and music well to be together.

Life has become more challenging as we've experienced even more, we might giving ourselves up in the process we pursuit our dreams But what makes a great creature? It's probably the greatest fall in your life, and ended up stronger than you think you might.

For god's sake, the words are written to inspire myself and probably people out there, and I'm utterly hoping somebody who can give me a hand to write it a music piece.


Lesson learned
Should I tell you this is the first time I feel so unsafe?
Could you make me believe that I’m strong enough to prove it all?
I know this might be the greatest odd in my life,
But here comes another voice in my head telling me “it’s gonna be alright”
I know it’s hard to face the world alone,
But with this song I could tell I’m just strong

Life is like sailing through the ocean
Winding all of your life
It’s not about how you fall and rise it up,
But how fast you can make it through the end
And learn a lesson
Love is the only house we ought to find
Fix your bruises
Change your mind
And be a man

Did I tell you this is the highest end of the world?
Have you ever been into the darkest life losing your faith?
I know this might be the biggest door to open,
But here comes another spirit insisting my life telling me “it’s gonna be alright”
I know it’s hard to soar and outshine yourself
But with this song you are everything you think you are

This is the lesson we gotta learn
Better be strong though there’s nobody sees us
Life ain’t great forever but that’s the reason we are born to cope

-Written by Steve Lim-


xoxo.

This is the moment

"God is great, but sometimes life ain't good".

Life is so unkind to people sometimes. You may think this is the toughest moment you may ever get, but you end up realizing that's just the part of your life. I love to put my own life and roller coaster together. There are ups and downs, time turns the wheel and love collides. It'll all be good as time goes by, everything becomes small in your life, asking yourself "what really matters?" All the craziness that bothers you would be a laughter after all.

This is the moment bothering me, but this is the lesson learned to be a stronger creature.

Be strong.

xoxo.

Picblog@VNM

Kind of tired to throw all the words out tonight. Picture speaks it all.

One of the specially-designed props, "Hua Gui Fei".

A complete one.

The bottle.

A bunch of it.

My lovely producer, Sam. His voice is soooo damn powerful, he could blow the K room off. Di Ke Niu Zai is his fave. LOL!

My fave Annie Wong with my producer.

Annie Wong. She's pretty.

Amber Chia and my classmate, Susan LFZ rehearsing one of the scene.

Amber Chia and my producer, Yoke rehearsing the drama.

Had a nice training at VNM.

Going hometown tomorrow, yay!

Be good.

xoxo.

RIP MJ and Farrah Fawcett

To MJ, you're my brothers' all-time favorite, salute to you for all of your good music and dances.

To Farrah, your sexual icon was incomparable. Keep beautiful in heaven.

RIP MJ and Farrah Fawcett.

Me and God love you

Dying with the song "God's Will" by Martina McBride, it's not a new single from her newest album but her 2003 album. If you ever want me to name you the most touching music video, this could probably be the one, I cried for times, honestly. The lyric is so beautiful and true. We've been always looking for our better life, but what bothers the helpless kids with diseases? They might only wish if they could live as many days as possible.

Check out this video!! Click here to watch.

"Me and God love you"

xoxo.

S-H-I-N-E

Feeling positive recently, I guess I'm walking towards the positiveness as I'm growing a little older, and you have no idea on how much I love all those positive words. They're probably the last thing in your life to keep you going, inspiring and then living your life again.

A single word means a thousand emotions.

I personally love the word "Shine", it simply describes all the positiveness of the likes, "brighten", "sparkle", "enlighten", "glow". "Shine" is my powerful word.

What shines my day? Probably a great song.

What shines my inspiration? Probably a dream.

What shines my feelings? Probably a faith.

What shines my life? Probably my family.

"Shine" is probably a word that hints my path. It's an uncertain long road, just let the light shines my way, though.

"A life for me to shine."

xoxo.

I'm happy

Kicking off my day a little unusual today. I didn't have to stay at the office for 8 hours, instead I went to recce some of the shooting locations with the drama producers and director. This is it, I'm kinda enjoy the process of shooting a drama, from scriptwriting to castings to recce locations and then to shooting. It's like a pregnant woman, waiting to give a newborn baby.

Later tonight, my housemates and I were doing some kind of "ice-breaking" session for our newcomer, her name is Hui San, in SS2 pasar malam, and we had our dinner at Wai Sik Gai. The best part of the night was the chatting, we crapped for almost 2 hours featuring of everything! LOL! It's been so long for being god of silence. Thank god, I'm out of that.

What a great day!

Life is full of uncertain, that's the fun thing I'm living for. I'm not too sure whether you guys out there have same feelings as mine, I love to live something on. I mean days becoming much more interesting when you have special day to celebrate with or certain occasions that you can't wait for. I hope everyday has something special waiting me to unveil, I got this definite specially on my intern days. It's really really uncertain yet fun.

Be well.

xoxo.

These couple of weeks...

Had so much fun with my current job, casting is apparently my favorite part. And I'm glad to say that my work place became lovely as I get used to the people around and the environment. Just great. Not to forget the coming Chinese drama will be shooting on 1st of July, daily schedule will be deadly packed.

This is the script of our new drama. So sorry with the editing of the title, the title is still under confidential.

Shooting of 《稽查专用》 going on in our company lobby.

Casting in progress. Our line producer Yoke (Left), 蒋佩佩 (Right), she is AiFM DJ.

Casting in progress. My classmate Susan (Left), 8TV Host 吴维彬 (Middle), Me holding DV Cam (Right).

Life's great.

xoxo.

What is HD?

It's quite often we hear about the word "HD", it's actually the abbreviation for High Definition, 高清in Chinese. HD is a technology that provides picture quality similar to 35mm movies with sound quality similar to today's CD. HDTV (Hi-Def Television) has already available in countries like US, UK, Hong Kong, Japan, Korea that provides good quality in both audio and visual. It's like watching high quality DVD through terrestrial TV channels. I wish Malaysia would have one in the coming future.

This is the difference of image quality between HD and without HD. 

HD gives sharper image.

In spite of those home appliances like TV, there's also a lot of products that claim themselves having HD effects. Recently, I saw a Taiwan contact lens advertisement that claims themselves providing HD effects. Oh my god, it's too much, it became a trend of giving the "HD"on it, seemed overusing the name.

Technology of TV has also lifted from traditional huge-box CRT TV to light-weighted LCD TV. Most remarkable difference between both TVs is the audio and visual quality provided, Full HD LCD TV provides ultra-high definition 1080 lines of vertical resolution, another name for Full HD is 1080p , letter "p" stands for progressive scan, which means the image is not interlaced. 1080p gives the equivalent quality of Blu-ray disc. With that, we can enjoy the vividness of movie like you can touch and feel it lively.

xoxo.

Thank god, it's Friday!

I've never been so excited about the coming of weekends, it feels like when I was in primary and high school days, Friday means everything to me because it's a kicking off of weekends. Now I can feel the excitement is coming up to me again, it's like the very first Saturday and Sunday I've ever had, so precious. Breaking all the confusion, I'm currently doing my interns in Double Vision, a production house. It's so understandable to know why do I love weekends, it's my off days.

Scriptwriting was what I "suffered" for these few days, I wish I won't have to continue the work next week. It's just not my thing. Duh, this is how people say "you ain't love what you're doing now but missing then". I wish I'm going to miss this moment, but not the tiredness.

Enjoy what I'm doing, my everything.

Thank god, it's Friday.

xoxo.

How fast could your internet speed possibly be?

I'm so frustrated about the internet speed right now. Okay, I must admit that I've already consumed all of the threshold limits which is 20GB that makes the speed down to 20%-30% of 1.2Mbps but now I'm the only person using the line now, what the heck is the sharing networks in my area that have been mentioning by the internet server? I'm totally lost and I couldn't stand this for long, I'm going to find another broadband server for sure. Look at the average broaband speed in Japan, it's freakin' averagely 63Mbps. Did you see what I just mention? It's 63Mbps!! Even your PC can only receive the maximum of 54Mbps of it. 

Let me tell you how fast 63Mbps could be. All these calculation may not follow the formulation, it's merely my simple assumptions. Pick my broadband as lead example.

I'm currenly having 1.2Mbps broadband speed, the fastest effort I could ever get was like 150-170kbps. Downloading a 100MB software is like spending 20 minutes of your life. So let's see how long do I have to spend if I download the same thing in Japan.

1.2Mbps = approx. 170kbps (best effort speed)

63Mbps = approx. 50 x 1.2

so, 170 x 50 = 8500 kbps

8500 kbps means what? 

You can download your 8.5MB song in one second.

You only spend 12 seconds of your life to download a 100MB software.

You only spend the length of one song to download a full-length, HD movie, that could possibly be 2GB.

Amazing huh?

 

Unfortunately, not in Malaysia.

It's like zombies in Resident Evil walking in here, it's SO DEAD!!

Whatever or whoever do something please..

American Idol Finale

American Idol!!!!!! This is probably the most predictable season ever, or should I say this is probably the most boring-to-me finale, all my faves are out. Apparently, the 2009 American Idol Season 8 winner goes to... Adam Lambert.

This is for sure based on both fan base and his voice.

Okay, I'm off. Nothing much to say. 

May god bless Kris.

xoxo.

Like fart releasing from your asshole

I guess the title is creative and funny enough to catch your eyes and deceive you to have a look here. Nothing special but my great day. This is the day I've been waiting for so long, super exciting. Just done my final exam, I feel so great, thinking of what to do next for a whole day. Singing karaoke was what I first think of right after I got out from the exam hall,  so I just went for it and satisfied with 6 hours long.

Words couldn't completely describe how happy am I right now. I'm so super freeeeeeeeeeee and horrendously happyyyyyyyyyyy. The previous hardwork paid this off!

What am I going to do next? 

A few sreaming movies or another drama series, I think.

xoxo.

American Idol Top 3

Gosh, another pathetic week. Kris Allen is yet to be out at this point. Allison was incredible this week, but poor American made this happen.

This is the one and only all-guy Top 3 in the Season 8.

(Clockwise) Kris Allen, Danny Gokey, and Adam Lambert.

Do well, Gokey.

xoxo.

Fave Songwriters

In spite of the vocalist himself/herself, people behind the song are well mentioned in the music industry: songwriter, executive producer. Sometimes I would find all of my favorite songs are actually written by a single songwriter, which could terrify me. Nothing's so coincident but the songwriters' music. That's the niche of the songwriter that could possibly name the songwriter by listening the song itself. That's really astounding to have a self's direction or trademark in music.

Linda Perry

Linda Perry is probably one of the best pop songwriters in the States. Her music has a particular element to let people recognize "Oh, that's Perry's music." Not forgetting to mention she has regular association act with Christina Aguilera. She also wrote to James Blunt, Gwen Stefani, Celine Dion, Alicia Keys and much more.

David Foster

David Foster is a multiple Grammy awards Canadian songwriter, he has all the big ballads in his hands. Songs like I Have Nothing, The Prayer and much more. He's also well known as a music producer.

Diane Warren

When talking about big ballads, make sure not to leave Diane Warren's music. Her music is amazing. You might be shocked to see her songs are all big hits of all time like Because You Loved Me, Un-break my heart, I Don't Want To Miss A Thing, How Do I Live, I Turn To You and much more.

Guy Chambers

An English songwriter best known for his partnership with Robbie Williams. He has 34 Gold/Platinum awarded albums in both UK and US. He has also associated with my fave Delta Goodrem, Together We Are One, Out Of The Blue, Believe Again are his masterpiece.

Kara DioGuardi

You guys may only know she is the new judge of the new season of American Idol, but do you know that she's actually songwriter and co-producer? I knew her long before American Idol, she's best known association with all the idols like Kelly Clarkson, Diana DeGarmo, Carrie Underwood, David Archuleta. She has some #1 hits by Christina Aguilera, Celine Dion, Britney Spears too. Most importantly, she's a pretty songwriter.

Chan Fai Yong （陈辉阳）

He's probably the one and only songwriter in Canton-pop that I like. He has a typical Chan's style of writing song, using similar musical instrument in all his music. His masterpiece can be seen from Eason Chan, Joey Yung, Miriam Yeung and much more.

Love and Peace with music.

xoxo.

American Idol 8

Matt Giraud is out. Gosh! He's one of my favorites. I was like so sad to know he's out. But I don't know why, I just think if Matt G. wasn't the one who's going home this week, he'll also do next week. I bet the top 3 in this season would be Danny Gokey, Adam Lambert and Allison Iraheta. Kris Allen is no way getting into top 3, he's like Jason Castro in the last season, he got into top 4 is all because of his fanbase. Now my only hope, Danny Gokey is going to beat Adam Lambert with a huge fanbase, I'm so glad to know that Danny G. has never been into bottoms, yay! According to the previous seasons, the one who's never been into bottoms has the most possibility of winning the show. He's the only hope to be the winner. 

Go Danny Gokey!

xoxo.

Movie day

Having final test in the moment, for me it's kinda pretty relax, maybe I'm getting used to it or, fed up of it. I'm still able to catch my free time watching some of the old movies, "Twister", "The Day After Tomorrow" and "The Brideswar", and I'm totally in love with those disaster movies, hoping there would be another "The Day After Tomorrow". I'm like starting to love movie (which I should have loved for so long, I'm taking Broadcasting.. duh!). Can't wait June for the big movie, Transformer II. I still remember how was the feeling when I watched the first one, it totally blew my mind, one of the greatest movies I've ever watched.

xoxo.

with best of luck.

Delta Goodrem

Feel so great yesterday way heading to Uni library, I gotta watch "Run" by Leona Lewis and "My Life Would Suck Without You" by Kelly Clarkson music video in RapidKL bus Narrowcasting TV. Never expect I could ever see my favorite music video in the bus, the song is quite new, too. Feel so grateful.

Been listening to Delta Goodrem's album these few days, I missed a lot of good tracks, apparently. I listen the albums all over again, download the whole discography of Delta. Omg, she's so talented Aussie singer, totally adore her piano pop. It is now getting harder and harder to find yourself an album that you can really play with your CD player from the first track until the last one, without skipping a single song. But Delta's album has some kind of strength to make your ears wide open. 

Here to recommend some of the tracks.

Debut album, Innocent Eyes. Tracks recommended: Whole album is recommended.

Second album, Mistaken Identity. All about her story of curing from cancer. Tracks recommeded: Be Strong, Fragile, Last Night On Earth, Out Of The Blue, Sanctuary, You Are My Rock.

Third and the latest album, self-titled, Delta. Tracks recommended: Believe Again, In This Life, One Day, Woman, I Can't Break It To My Heart, You Will Only Break My Heart.

xoxo.